If you do not empathize with the plights of your victims, you are probably a sociopath. You know you are doing something wrong, because you fear being caught and take all measures–including murder–to prevent discovery.
Psalm 2 says that God laughs at plans to resist His authority. Yes. God laughs at you and your plans. He sees the end of you and of your works.
There is hope for you. You still have free will that you can engage to turn from evil and ask God and your victims to forgive you.
These videos explain sociopathy and psychopathy.